Is it normal to want my boyfriend around so much?
So me and my boyfriend have dated 2 times, each for 6 months. I have never been in love until I met him. I have given him everything I could. The first time we dated was amazing. It was like a honeymoon 24/7. It was never a question of when I was going to see him, it was what time he was coming over that day. If for some reason I didn't hang out with him the full day we would obsessively text and say the sweetest things. Those type of texts that make you tear up because they are so sweet. We had a horrible break up for a huge reason (there was no cheating). But right after he broke up with me he asked me back, I said no. We then fought, but six months later I called him because I COULDNT GET OVER HIM. So now we have been dating another 6 moths and things are different :/ He NEVER asks to hang out, we argue more because I feel unappreciated. I have yet to get a cute text. Hell he barely texts unless he is bored or at home. His sex drive isn;t even half of what it use to be with me. If I ask him to do something he doesnt want to I get a no. But if his friends (these are new people since the last time we dated) as then it's 100% yes. I'm going crazy. I'm sad when I'm not with him, he says he loves me more than last time and we want to move out together by this April. But i no longer feel like his princess or the apple of his eye. He says that he knows I'll always be here and thats why he chooses the guys most of the time because it's harder for him to connect with them. He says that is we don't hang out for a week he knows that when we do it will be like nothing has changed. But for me I feel so disconnected, and clingy and I miss the old him so much but he gets mad when I bring it up and tells me I should have taken him back because now i've broken his heart to much and it still hurts. I just don't know what to do anymore becasue I feel broken. Like at this point he can do whatever he wants to me and i'll just take it because the thought of losing him gives me an anxiety attack. But things aren't always bad! When it's good it's still great if I can get his attention, but when we are apart I feel like I'm single. And I'm so insecure now because I feel like he got so much more attractive and he could find some one SO much better than me :(