Is it normal to want friends but then again not?

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Since the 4th grade(I'm a senior now) I had no real friends. Guess it was because I was a bit shy, liked "odd" things, was more of a tomboy and probably, if not mostly, my temperament and huge lack/knowledge of communication skills :/
Since I never had a real friend/friendship I still want one, it's a bit hard to watch all the people you know go out, get together and have fun, while I'm at home playing The Witcher and killing monsters ._. Feels bad to be dort of left out.
I tried many times to make friends, wasn't easy because of the trust issues that I have but most of the time I failed or sabotaged the friendship on purpose just to see if the person will care. :/ Or worse, just ended it because I got qay too annoyed by them.
So, is it normal to want friends but once you have them you want to be alone cause you feel they're annoying you? :/

P.S. - sorry, my thoughts were so scattered, I hope it all makes at least o.12% sense. :)

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  • gummy_jr

    I was always a bit of a loner myself. I didn't make "actual" friends until about 7th grade when I moved to a large neighborhood and saw that classmates lived in the same neighborhood as me. I gotta say though; the group of friends I made were the best friends a guy like me could ask for :)

    We'd all walk to and from school everyday just talking an acting like fools. Ahh memoirs :')

    I can also remember us doing homework in school so we didn't have to do it at home, which gave us more time to hang out. Gotta say though, our best times came from chilly autumn evenings.

    Okay I'm ranting now but the point is; some of us make friends slower than others. I'm sure you'll make some soon :) and I hope they're the kindest and most loyal group of people you meet.

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  • bedhead_caress

    I talked and talk to lots of people in high school. Not any one of those people I can call a true friend... I'd say it's normal, maybe not the most emotionally healthy though. I don't want acquaintances anymore. Some days I just want to stop BSing with random people, and pull into a shell. And to be pried from that shell by a real friend.

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  • thegypsysailor

    I think one of the things people in high school forget is that they have been thrown into a group (students) because of their age and where they live. Many are like you, unable to find others they can relate to. After school, your groups will be more regulated by common interests. For instance, if you go to college, you will choose a curriculum that leads to specific employment in a field of your choosing, and those around you will have that in common with you.
    As you diversify in life, you may become interested in activities like scuba diving, skiing, camping or biking, just to name a few. So again, you will be mixing with people who have common interests with you.
    You are way too young to get all hung up on this stuff right now; relax, things will change for the better.

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  • RoseIsabella

    I think I'm a bit of a loner.

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  • gummy_jr

    This is a wall of text?

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    • DangerousPotatoGuy

      hehe, this is a short wall of text :P

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