Is it normal to want everyone to hate me
To be honest everything that I do it's with the intention of having people to hate me. I just do things like that. For example in school I only get good grades just to show everyone up, later, when I have a bitchin job and see them broke and homeless. and it's not difficult. Basically doing everything I can to make people feel stupid, and worthless. Because they are. Family, i want to do things that go the wrong way against them. In a way I feel at ease, seeing everyone's hateful reactions to me. It just confirms that they never liked me anyway. wasn't always that way though. I want so badly to believe that people do like me or love me but I can't. Sometimes i feel guilty and sad where I want to kill myself. Then those feelings go away because I realize how everyone would be laughing and happy if I died. And that gives me motivation to move on.