Is it normal to want a terminal illness like cancer or hiv?
I really wish I had something like cancer or multiple sclerosis so that I can have an early death. Not for attention or anything, I just really want to die without having to actively kill myself. Well, actually...I want to die and to live at the same time so I think a terminal illness would be the best option for me since it drastically shortens my lifetime but will still give me some time to live and say goodbye to everyone. Being alive is so stressful, I just can't cope with it.
It feels so wrong to want this, is it normal??