Is it normal to want a life like this?

If you are content with how your life is right now .. then you can't want too much from life then .. no point hoping for any better i guess if your genuinely happy with how it is already .

You just said you have a horrible life and you want it. That's not normal, I would sujest seeing a doctor.

give it a try to change if you dont like it you can always go back to what youre doing, just take care of yourself you sound really down to earth and nice,dont let this habits destroy you...

do whatever makes u happy

i have bin there i know whats its like i'm not social either but i think you need to try new things and than do what ever feels best i have done that and it workt for me. you dont have to do because everybody tells you to but just do it for yourself. somethings might suprice you.

It's not normal, but I can sympathize. Sometimes we like to wallow in that sort of thing. I know when I'm sad or angry, it's sometimes more satisfying that being happy. However, I would say this: having a whole array of strong emotions (happy, sad, lonely, love, etc.) is the best way to go. Don't let yourself be sucked into one emotion. It gets old, and your contentment won't last.

As for the cutting, try to make sure you don't leave too many scars. They tend to be awkward and embarrassing to explain later in life. Smoking isn't something necessarily negative psychologically... and not having a social life is something you can gradually fix.

Trust me. I used to be in those shoes. It's better to change things up a bit than to remain stagnant.

It's normal depending on the type of person you are.

If you are happy why did you post this? You can't change the past. So if what you are doing today makes you happy then it doesn't matter what the rest of us think. Only you can control your life. You decide how you want to be.

im going through half the stuff youve just said,
and i think your maybe just afraid of change thats why your happy with your life ,honestly idk but the reason why im like how i am and what i do is because ive always done the same thing and always been the same person i always am and i dont want to change .idk if that made sence lol

I hope nothing I've said offends you. You deserve respect, so take what you want from my comments :)

Could it be that you don't know who you are without all the horrible stuff and that's why you are okay with it? Because it's familiar and because you have developed habits that help you feel in control of it? I'm not trying to judge you, you deserve an open mind, I am just trying to get a better picture. I feel you should have a happy, content life without too much horrible and without having to cut or smoke to get it. That is only because I care about your health and don't like to hear about anyone in pain even if I don't know them. I hope you can find a medium to where you can deal with your past and be happy even if it surfaces a lot. I know cutting can help bring you back to reality when you've been gone to long from it or it can help reality go away or it can help you feel like at least some sort of your horrible experience is being proved. I just don't want you to hurt yourself too badly. Anyway, your feelings are common but I hope you can do what's best for yourself in the long run.

What is it that you are happy about?