Is it normal to view my bdsm fetish as my ultimate expression of love?

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When my boyfriend and I started to date I was 15 and he 17. (now 19 and 21) At the time i was very inexpeirienced sexually, had only ever kissed a guy, never touched myself before although i think i may have let a guy squeeze my boobs lol :P my mind did wander to sex, but i usually pushed it away, probably not normal for a 15 yr old but i was raised a pretty sheltered, goody-good country girl. I sometimes had sex dreams where I was raped, but in a sexy way? but always felt dirty and guilty in the morning and the thought of actually being raped terrifies me. But once I started to fall in love with my boyfriend I began fantasizing about him raping me... sick eh :P... and tying me up and stuff... I had heard of bdsm but didnt know much about it so did some research and a little light went on,it all made sense, and i was so happy to discover how many others can relate. We started exploring the world of BDSM, I think it turns me on more then him, but he does think it's hot. Here's the weird part, The more I fell in love the more 'hard-core' I got. By time I was absolutely sure this was the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, I have an obsession with pleasing him, making him happy, being a 'perfect wife' (he calls me this as well as his 'little girl' 'little slut' 'baby' etc) and just satisfying him in every aspect a woman should, obeying him and receiving punishment when im bad. I know ppl like to get kinky to, but is it normal to be obsessed with someone like this? too love them so much that nothing would make you happier then being their slave? He makes me happier then anything i've ever had, and he just treats me so well and spoils me, i just want to make him the happiest man in the world, cause I love him so much and he's soo freakin cute.

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  • mharwich
    13 years ago

    Totally hot and totally a turn on, I wish my gf was like that, go as crazy as you want, its hot and awesome and totally alright, it's not hurting anyone if both of you enjoy it ;-) it will actually strengthen your relationship to have something kinky and personal together like that

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    • so_damn_unpretty
      13 years ago

      Thanks :)

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  • searching3000
    7 years ago

    If it works for YOU.. that is great,,,,,,,,,,

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  • tough1
    9 years ago

    If you are happy then all is well.

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  • anon77
    12 years ago

    wasp probably over estimates the numbers

    And there are some fairly common emotional issues that come with this lifestye.

    Here is a question for you.. when you have kids you want them to see and hear you being degraded spanked hit.. etc. think about what that will do to a very young mind.

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  • wasp
    13 years ago

    Have you any idea how many millions of people on the BDSM scene are searching for what you have in this relationship. Good luck to you both! I am heaps jealous :)

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  • nicegirl
    13 years ago

    super nice.
    i love fetish too.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    I have that same fetish! I'm not alone yay!

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