Is it normal to use and hate your friends?
I have a few friends and school and an only one best friend. I don't like her but sometimes I hate her. The same is it with the other. I use these friends at school that I'm not alone at school. If they want to meet me after school, I often lie, about having other plans. When we meet is to me all the time boring. They don't know the real me, that i like games, often surf on the internet, and give a damn about the boys at school. i think when i would tell them all these things, they would hate me and i do not like competing neither being alone at school.
I make this for a long while now, i still have almost one year to go to school. So, is this normal?
(sorry for the bad english)