Is it normal to treat yourself this way?
Hey! ^_^ This will be long, but try to hang in there :P
Okay, I don't really know how to write this, but I'll do my best to make it understandable.
Ever since I was young, I'd make up these really vivid daydreams of myself getting hurt. It was just a strange habit back then.
Sometimes, I'd get burnt to death, or ripped apart by wolves. Other times, I'd be eaten alive by thousands of bugs or completely humiliated.
As years passed by, the daydreams actually began to hurt. I swear, the pain was so real. Once, I even checked my body for bug bites, because I could feel the stings all over.
Now, I hear a voice (No, I'm not schizophrenic :]), anyway this voice is mine. It's not just like thinking in your head, the voice is actually like I'm talking to myself (does that make sense?) I hear me say all sorts of mean things about my self.
The worst part about it is that there's no getting away. I feel like I've become my own arch enemy ._.
Does this happen to anyone else out there? Is there a way to stop it?
I'm sorry it was so long >_<