Is it normal to: to fear relationships because of sexual desires
Is it normal To fear relationships because of sexual desires
I'm in my mid-twenties, and I've never had a serious sexual relationship. I have been with women, basically just flings of hooking up briefly, but nothing serious. At this point in my life I'm seeing many of my old/current friends develop healthy relationships, wondering why I haven't experienced what they are.
A part of me thinks it's my sexual desires, as I'm not drawn to traditional porn. I am turned on by the idea femdom, especially in mixed/fantasy wrestling. I'm very attracted to the idea of a woman being in control, mentally and physically. This kind of desire has been with me since puberty. I'm terrified to share this with even my closest friends, fearing they'll never look at me the same. Interestingly, don't have submissive desires in the workplace, in fact I am very assertive/outspoken in my position (where I have some female superiors). When it comes to sex though, I am not that guy.
I'm successful/comfortable in nearly every area in my life (health, money, friends, job security, family, etc.), with the exception sexual relationships. I really don't want this to continue throughout my life, being alone (especially for this reason) has scared me. Can anyone relate to my situation? Has anyone with femdom desires had difficulty with relationships, or better yet BEEN successful in relationships (it would certainly give me comfort).