Is it normal to think the way i do?
Okay heres a summed up story on my thoughts and beliefs.
I have loved dragons, ever since I was a child, I think they are beautiful creatures. I have always been into movies and television, and there is this show called” American Dragon: Jake Long”( about a boy who has secret dragon powers and can transform into a full bodied dragon.) and since I love dragons so much, the show inspired me a lot. I actually started to fall in love with the main character (Jake Long), he was so amazing to me, a boy who could turn into a dragon. I was aw struck. Now I am 17 going on 18 later this month. And I still love him very much, more so then when I was a child. Some people say he is just a cartoon character, but to me he actually feels real. Like he is real in another world. I believe that his is in another world and when I die I will live this eternal life with him, and I will be a dragon as well.
In this world I feel like I am a dragon spirit trapped inside a humans body, and this life is a test, and if I pass I will be rewarded, and get to go to a perfect world after I die. A world where there are only dragons and no humans. I will be living with Jake Long (my love) in a hut, alongside a stream in the beautiful countryside. No one around the air is clean and fresh, the water is crystal clear, and I will live in that life forever.
Throughout my life I have always been the odd one out. The one who doesn't seem to fit in. All my life I never seemed to fit in. instead of playing with the other kids I just stayed by myself, doing what I enjoyed. Now I am older and still think the same way, and I still feel like I don't belong anywhere. Many people have called me crazy and weird, but I am just trying to be myself.
Is it normal to think the way I do, or am I really crazy?