Is it normal to think that everybody is plotting against me
I always feel like my friends secretly hate me and are only nice to me to get something good out of it for their sake, and that they're being ironic when saying sweet things: like "you're pretty" (im not) and then go laugh about it and trash-talk me with others. I don't trust anybody except my lifelong bestie, which I also sometimes get these paranoid-ass thoughts with.. like she's out to kidnap me and break my heart forever and expose all my secrets to others. It's getting annoying, like I can't even take a compliment without dwelling on it for hours, thinking that it was just some shitty prank. And in addition I always think someone is watching me. I try to turn it off but I can't. And my thoughts impulsively do this little thing where they try to make up the worst, scariest creature ever, and it just comes and stays. I sound like some paranoid, insane loser. I feel like I'm going crazy, or something.