Is it normal to think of loved ones dieing??
OK so i was sitting on the couch. A little stressed out. And I was thinking about how life is so repetitive and I just want to have fun and that somehow gotme thinking how can my mum and cousin do the same thing every every day and then the next thought was maybe i should save them/put them out of their misery...
This entire thought process happened in about a a milisecond. It happened so fast I am not sure about the sequence of thoguths that lead to that thought...but that thought stood out and SCARED me.
Love my mum and cousin mean the world to me. I love them both dearrrrlyyyyy. This really bothered me. Now I am trying to "retrace" my thoughts to find out how I came to think that...really bothers me and disturbed me and I know i could never do anything like that but that my brain "went there" bothers me a lot. And I have no idea how it got there. Trying to "figure" it out and analyze it etc etc. but the thought happened so quick I can't pin point exactly what lead up to it.