Is it normal to think like this?

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I'm a 18 year old male, I'm sorry in advance for a long post but I don't know if there is something wrong with me or not..

At a young age of about 11 I had a friend whom I used to visit all the time and play video games. He began this habbit of teasing me by pulling out his penis and making me touch it, at first ofc I didn't like it and always removed my hand, but slowly I began growing tired of this game and stopped removing my hand and simply let him hold my hand on his boner while he played games..
After a while I began rubbing his crotch underneath the desk everytime I visited him, slowly pulling his cock out of his pants to casually rub it while watching him play on his pc. A while later, and a few porn videos, I began wanting to taste it.. once I sat underneath his desk, rubbing his dick like normally but then managed to reach for it with my mouth and suck it gently while jerking him off. Anyways, everytime I left his house, I felt horrible, like I was disgusting and worthless for even thinking of him this way, but every time I took a shower or masturbated, I couldn't help but to think of his hard cock till I reached climax and cummed, afterwards I felt bad again and tried to forget about it. This went on for like 3-4 years of me wondering if I was gay, bisexual or just straight with a strange fetish.
I am now 18, I believe I am bisexual although I have never had sex apart from jerking him off and giving him oral, I now barely talk to him, and have never kissed anyone, girl or boy, I have though been finding new interest online like incests and furry, the thought of a big horse cock cumming all over me or the fucking a dogs warm pussy excites me deeply, aswell as the thought of my older sisters naked body.
But sadly once masturbating over those thoughts I always find myself feeling bad and ashamed, like it's wrong of me to think of those things, I just want to know if this is something I should seek help for or if I shouldn't feel bad about these thoughts..
Please give me some advice in the comments..

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  • blueballs
    1 year ago

    If this is your first or only sexual experience yes it’s normal to think or fantasize about it. Did he ever cum when jerking or blowing him?

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  • peterr
    10 years ago

    You started sucking his cock and you like it so why not suck some other guys off. Just go to Craigslist and you will find all you want in the personal section.

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  • ccjigsaw
    11 years ago

    This is a very open minded site, so everyones going to have there own opinion. I think it's healthy you feel bad about it honestly... I don't think the gay experience is anything to feel all that bad about, as it's semi-normal and healthy. Thinking of your sister naked, the furry thing and the animal stuff is a bit messed up. I'm hoping feeling bad about it means you would never indulge in those sorts of things. But that's just me. I don't think you're gay btw, at best you're bi-sexual. You won't know until you find a girl and try things out though. You're still fairly young, you have lots of time to figure your self out :)

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    • RabbitHaze
      11 years ago

      I don't think I would ever do anything about the furry things and deff not my sister, and I think I like girls, or at least I fantasise about finding one to be with alot, thank you for the comment btw c:

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  • Isolated
    11 years ago

    I don't find incest and furries gross, simply because I'm used to seeing them around the Internet, especially when I search for Yaoi or Yuri. I see this as normal.
    Why the guilt though? There are plenty of people with the same fetishes as you. Heck, who makes the content that you like? You shouldn't feel ashamed to have them. It's not hurting anyone and it doesn't make you less of a person than anyone else.

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  • RabbitHaze
    11 years ago

    I made this post..

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    • shuggy-chan
      11 years ago

      No I did

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      • ccjigsaw
        11 years ago

        Shuggy don't scare him away, he's only 2 days old!!

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