Is it normal to think i might have schizophrenia?
I'll keep this straight to the point.
My entire life, I've always had long, intense conversations with fictional book/game/anime characters in my head. I'll often laugh aloud, contort my face to the appropriate expression for whatever retort I have made or the character has made, and have even felt the urge to run and jump around my house out sheer elation at these thoughts. I enjoy them to those around me. I prefer them.
I've suffered from social anxiety as well. I have difficulty overcoming my nervousness when it comes to change. I hate any sort of change, whether good or bad.
I am extremely paranoid. I've developed an intricate way of thinking to dissuade mind readers, all composed of four levels. I constantly think like this. I can't stop. I also fear that someone is watching me most of the time, and will have anxiety attacks or cry out of humiliation if I catch myself doing something irregular or strange, even in the privacy of my own home.
I can also become very violent. I've broken the legs of both of my dogs out of irritation, and have asphyxiated one of them.
Out of all of this, I fear the need to move the most. Whenever I have conversations with my characters, I always feel like I have to move around. Run downstairs, jump on my couches, etc. What's wrong with me? I can keep up a perfect facade in front of others, and actually have very many real friends. I'm using this website to come out. Please help me.