Is it normal to think i might have schizophrenia?

I'll keep this straight to the point.

My entire life, I've always had long, intense conversations with fictional book/game/anime characters in my head. I'll often laugh aloud, contort my face to the appropriate expression for whatever retort I have made or the character has made, and have even felt the urge to run and jump around my house out sheer elation at these thoughts. I enjoy them to those around me. I prefer them.

I've suffered from social anxiety as well. I have difficulty overcoming my nervousness when it comes to change. I hate any sort of change, whether good or bad.

I am extremely paranoid. I've developed an intricate way of thinking to dissuade mind readers, all composed of four levels. I constantly think like this. I can't stop. I also fear that someone is watching me most of the time, and will have anxiety attacks or cry out of humiliation if I catch myself doing something irregular or strange, even in the privacy of my own home.

I can also become very violent. I've broken the legs of both of my dogs out of irritation, and have asphyxiated one of them.

Out of all of this, I fear the need to move the most. Whenever I have conversations with my characters, I always feel like I have to move around. Run downstairs, jump on my couches, etc. What's wrong with me? I can keep up a perfect facade in front of others, and actually have very many real friends. I'm using this website to come out. Please help me.

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  • squirrelgirl

    While I can definitely relate to the talking to fictional characters and need to move around thing as well as the paranoia (to a ;lesser extent), I find it very disturbing that you have injured your own pets. That kind of behavior can sometimes be a precursor to hurting other human beings, so I highly suggest you get professional help before something like that can happen.

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    • Believe me, it worries me too. Harming animals is nothing new to me. I've been torturing them since I was a child. It was a way to get out all of my anger, and if you can't tell, I'm hinting at a terrible childhood. It's been a method of preventing myself from hurting others for many a year.

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  • Legion

    i don't see the having conversations with characters in your head as schizophrenic . I have a character In my head i have conversations with all the time, and I'm well adjusted otherwise. now the other things, the violent mood swings and outbursts the paranoia and constant need to move, i would agree. now hearing voices is a symptom, but the voices are usually rather disjointed and may say things that are malicious, like they want to hurt you or your family, or the voices will tell you that everyone is watching you or that someone is reading your thoughts .

    considering everything said, this definetly sounds like schizophrenia. i know a schizophrenic,(and seen the papers with her diagnosis) and many of the things you describe i have seen her say and do.

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    • awesomeadvice88

      I can't agree with you more, I'm sorry to hear about the woman/girl you've mentioned, I hope she's making good progression as to getting rid of her schizophrenia! What you said struck a nerve inside me that made me tear up a bit! I also know a schizophrenic and to see her now from when I first seen her nobody would recognise her, she has progressed so much! I feel to call people with problems such as schizophrenia to be labelled mental is improper and wrong, I feel they shouldn't be made to have a label because it sticks for the rest of their lives, can you imagine the emotional distress they must experience, I can't even begin to! I can sympathise with anyone in this position, and I give credit to everyon that sticks by anyone with any problems such as schizophrenia! I feel they need to be acknowledged for what they are doing, not because they need to be to carry on doing it, just so they understand how cherished they are to the people they help! Sorry to waffle like I have but I respect you a lot man and I wish you and the woman you mentioned all the best!

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  • ineida

    Please stay away from animals.

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  • awesomeadvice88

    I say this and can't hint at this enough, what the fuck does everyone think normal is, there is no normal!!!! Anything anyone does is either all 'normal' or 'abnormal'! Right now that's out of the way, you may have schizophrenia, do you hear voices prominently or are you imagining the woices so you can speak? Yes there is a difference. Do they tell you to do, or provoke you to do any obscene things? Do you right what they say down on a pad? Do they seem to control any part of your life? Any of the answers to these questions yes, to peopl saying 'see your/a doctor' bullshit, doctors know fuck all about anything! Plus most of them are lazy arrogant bastards that try to make more money by seeing more patients! There are stories where people have been diagnosed improperly because of shit or purely stupid doctors! Go to a specialist psychiatrist if the belief you are actually schizophrenic is so strong! It seems highly likely you may have some form of mental disorder (hate saying that btw), as to what I couldn't tell you from the top of my head, after all I'm no expert! However I have had some experience with schizophrenics! Skip the doctors, go to a specialist! I hope your okay, and since this post have tried to sort things out and have sought help! To hear what you're going through is terrible and I only hope I can help in some way! Best of luck to you and although I don't know you personally, if you need me, I'll be here, just throw me a message!

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  • maybe Schizophrenic people are the normal people you ever think of that

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  • *~ThePurplePixie~*

    Hello there
    It might be a good plan to see your doctor, talk about how you feel and go from there. There may be help available before your life becomes unmanagable.
    A great friend of mine suffers from schizofrenia, and upon hearing about your behaviour with the dogs, sounded genuinely worried and quite plainly stated that you need to see a doctor.
    By behaving like you have, you may get yourself into all kinds of trouble, which needs to be addressed at once.
    I wish you the best, and hope with genuine concern that you will hasten to see a doctor immediately.

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  • gncp

    yes u have! and ur not normal!!!!!!!

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  • Dasani

    eeeew, NOT NORMAL. people who hurt animals should be put in prison for a long time. :(

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    • Ew? Though abusing helpless creatures is very wrong, and, believe me, my actions hang heavily on my conscious, it is not "eeeew,". My harming animals wasn't the main focus of this post. Simply a factor of it. It's not my damn pet anyway, and I assure you, if your incompetent whore of a mother had decided to buy an 800 dollar rat-dog instead of paying off her debt, you'd want to snap something's neck too.

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  • Doctors now, go.

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  • Get yourself too the doctors >< they can help (: x

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  • uPSIDEOFDOWn

    From what I know about emotional spectrum imbalances, it does sound like you have a large degree of schizoid. Take this with a grain of salt though--I am an anthropologist, not a doctor. I would reccommend standing by a psychiatrist's evaluation, even if he/she laughed at you. Unfortunately, you can't control asshole-output, but you can take the important message away from people who are qualified to give it.

    I remember "coming out"--admitting to my friends that I am type 1 bipolar. Half of them weren't even surprised hahah, and the other half, of course, found it shocking, but the human capacity to care runs deep.

    Get another evaluation. Maybe even get a second one after that. If schizoid, take meds until you find a cocktail that works for you (I took several medicines before sumbling upon lithium, which is ideal for me). Most of all, find online and in person support groups, and therapy, if you can afford it :/ Relating to people in the same position as yourself will help you feel comfortable in every aspect of your life. Good luck, youll be fine soon :)

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    • Thank you, so much, for the advice. One of my greatest fears is to be laughed at. Or thought of as childish and illogical...

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  • Avant-Garde

    I believe I've had it since I was a child. All my life, The older I get. Each year that passes. My symptoms become more and more severe... I've tried to get diagnosed but the people around me don't believe me and say that I'm lying, but I know that there's something wrong with me. Paranoia, Hallucinations of every kind, bizarre mood swings,etc. It's not normal for anyone.... Write down every single symptom and get a "psychiatric evaluation". I think that's what it's called, but PLEASE don't see a psychiatrist! I have one and the last vista he found out about some of my paranoia and he and my family laughed at my "beliefs"... Psychiatrists suck, please see a therapist or perhaps go to a hospital specializing in mental illnesses. I don't know how old you are, but I think if you're still a minor that you can be "forced" into treatment. My doctor said that at my age, that I can't be forced into taking medication if I don't want it. So, be careful and read up on everything you possibly can.

    Good Luck!

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    • Thank you for the advice. After reading all of these reviews, I've been trying to speak to my mother about it, so that she can enlist a psychologist to help me. She minimized everything. I attempted to explain that, as we spoke, the chorus of characters in my head were commenting on her every action and word, and that the voice of a British man was iterating her thought process. She began to laugh nervously, and informed me that everyone creates scenarios in their head before they enter a strenuous, social situation. I've also tried to express my fears to a friend of mine, who lived with me for a month, and she chided me, and told me that I couldn't be schizophrenic, because I didn't act like Donnie Darko (a character from a movie).

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