Is it normal to think about killing?
Usually, I'm a very happy person and feel content. A few years ago I suffered from depression but I pushed it away and ignored it and the sadness went away. Lately, however, I've been having the feelings come back randomly, I never went to get diagnosed by a doctor or anything. And also, sometimes I have thoughts about killing my friends. It feels like I'm a completely different person. While I think about this I feel completely calm and mature, which is not usually how I act. After I snap out of the trance-like state that I was in, I feel shocked that I was even thinking things like that. But even when I'm thinking about their death I never actually feel an genuine desire to actually kill them. I don't understand why this is happening because I have pretty good life. Is this normal? Or should I talk to someone about it?