Is it normal to talk to myself
Okay, so, I've had low self esteem and felt pretty alone my whole life. I never had a friend to talk to about everything, and my mom shrugged everything off as "teenager crap", my sister says my problems are dumb, and my dad, well, I don't talk to him.
I've always talked to myself in my head, but in the way I thought was normal. So about a year ago alot started getting rough in my life, I felt alone, my best friend stopped talking to me, it was just really hard, I felt like dying every night because it felt like no one cared, and seeing as if I brought up feeling sad to my mother she did nothing, I felt like I had no one to talk to. So I started talking to myself, but not myself, a guy from a dream I had a few years ago.
I know he's not real, but I talk to myself, pretending it's him. I feel like if I just say that I'm telling myself that it's okay, or people care about me, I don't believe it. But if I pretend he's saying it I feel like it's more true.
And it hasn't had a negative effect on my life, just the opposite in fact, since I started talking to "him" I've gotten over my depression with no help ((or am getting over it, I know i still have it but it's not as bad as before)), i've come out of my shell and made lots of new friends, and I've been more willing to be myself around people.
I'm kind of nervous though. I mean, I know he's not real, and i know I'm just telling myself stuff to make me feel better, but I still feel like it's really weird.
So, in a short summary, is it normal for me to talk to a "person" in my head, even if I know i'm really just talking to myself?