Is it normal to talk to her that way?

Leave her alone, you're stroking your ego.

Sounds cruel. It's understandable that you miss being in a relationship, but if you don't want one with her, stop the torture and let her move on.

Stop playing, that's mean :(

Nah, it's a selfish thing to do and you've probably done it a dozen times to her too. You're using her for whatever you get out of it, the attention or having someone strung along to chase after you, whatever the reason it's not right to treat someone like that.

In a year or two she'll see you for what you really were and there won't be any feelings left and the girl that loved you, will be gone. She won't hold onto the memories or think of you and if she does it will be in passing and she'll regret ever having feelings for you at all. It will be clear to her that you weren't worth her tears or silent wishes and your kisses and hugs will bear no more on her soul.

@Smokey1D I would but I am too lazy and short tempered atm, though I do understand it makes my writing hard to read;thanks though.

Possibly,you sound very unsure about yourself and posting here tells me your decision isn't true(that you don't want to be with her) if you didn't want to be with her you would have never thought about her or spoke about her especially here.You rejected her but in reality you rejected yourself like you are now. You don't even believe yourself saying something so ridiculous and that is why you are here seeking approval. That is if you are speaking about yourself, but to me it sounds like you are the "girlfriend" and wondering what the fuck happened. So basically the guy is not ready to be with you but he wants to.For whatever reason he is in a way punishing himself because he believes he doesn't deserve good and this makes him sour and unsure hence the rejection but still talking about how he would love you if he could. Best bet is to get the guy to stop hating himself or leave for a while and check back when he/you is/are less toxic.