Is it normal to suddenly wake up full of anger?
I recently graduated from college, and this summer has been emotionally rough for me. Recently, I’ve been waking up angry and I can feel it in my eyes. I keep my emotions to myself and only express myself homes to my boyfriend, because he’s very understanding and helps me the best he can. I know it’s not ok to bottle up emotions, but whenever I tell my mom about my emotions, she tells me to “Talk to the lord” and says I need to go to church. My dad only says that I take things too seriously. My sister tells me to let it go, because I’m in a better place now than when I was in high school. But I’ve been remembering all the times that I was picked on, often by my family members, taken advantage of by a former boyfriend and classmates, and feelings of jealousy towards people with friends or female fictional characters. I try not to disclose too much about my feelings to my family because they tend to give me advice only to pick on me on days like my birthday, or remind me of how I was taken advantage of by my ex. It’s taken a toll on my relationship with my current boyfriend, because I only feel confident telling him about my problems. I realize the anger is the sum of a lot of things that happened to me but I’ve ignored it for the sake of my health or my studies or to appear like I’ve move past it.