Is it normal to subconsciously lie to yourself and always feel confused?
I find it difficult to differentiate what I believe to be true and what I don't believe to be true. I don't know when it started exactly, probably when I became a teenager and instead of faking myself for others, tried to actually change myself - but with growing up and a change of situation, I thought i'd have grown out of it by now.
Even when it comes to trying to figure out simple things, whether I'm trying my best, am truly sincere, what I truly think on this matter or similar scenarios, I can't figure out the answer. The only time I can figure things out is when I feel a noticeable emotion as opposed to typical numbness.
Has anyone else ever experienced this, or understand it?