Is it normal to stress a lot about your past experiences.

I'm 28 and I've already been with over 100 men. Some of which I can't remember. Not cause I was drunk or high but because I don't remember them after so many years have passed. I used to sleep with a new man everyday in my early twenties. A few relationships but mostly sex. When I found myself doing this too much and still broke I decided to start escorting on my on to kill two birds with one stone. That probably doubles the number but I'm only counting men I chose. I only escorted for about 6 months when I decided to quit. My current boyfriend and I are born again christians. He tells me to forget about it but it haunts me. I have a bunch of sex tapes out and one was sent to my mother by a rejected guy a few years back. Everyday I wake up I.fear of running into my past. Is this ok thoughts. I'm saved now and have been with the same man for three years.