Is it normal to still be a virgin at 30 under these circumstances?
I'm a 30 year old guy. I'm still a virgin and I haven't even ever kissed a girl (though I REALLY want to). There's a reason for this though. I've suffered a SEVERE stroke when I was 19, which has put me in a wheelchair. It´s MUCH harder to get a girl then. Before, I was simply too shy to approach a girl.
However, through EXTREMELY hard training, I can now walk again pretty OK! I've been through HELL and back. Can you imagine all the despair, the pain, the frustration? The first time after I took a stroll again after 11 (!) years of PURE misery, I FRANTICALLY cried like a baby for about an hour. I still do sometimes.
Anyway, I have NO experience with women WHATSOEVER (though I´m fairly attractive). I feel EXTREMELY ashamed and embarassed by it, and I sometimes really HATE myself, especially since all my buddies (who have always been healthy) all have girlfriends. I REALLY want a girlfriend too. I would LOVE to have one. I VERY, VERY often dream of having a girlfriend. It´s ALL I´ve ever wanted and I would treat her SO incredibly good. I would love her FOREVER.
Do you think I can still get a girlfriend and lose my virginity to her? I want my first time to be special. And am I normal, or a freak? Personally, I think I´m a freak. I feel I´m a loser, even though I got out of my chair.