Is it normal to screw everyone over?
I have a compulsion to screw over everyone who enters my life. I mean, everyone! Casual acquaintances, neighbors, employers, co-workers, wannabe friends, even family. I have to beat them somehow, it can be financially, emotionally, giving them any sort of hardship, wasting their time/resources.
It's uncontrollable and it happens with great ease on my part. In my mind I see it play out instantly like a chess game, making moves and predicting what they'll do and compensating for that to make sure I win. It literally happens in seconds. It's like I know how the game is going to end, I know all the moves too but I have to go along as if everything is totally normal while the plan unfolds. That can be the hardest part, the waiting for it to all come together depending on how long the game is. Some games are quick and others go on for years. It's also fun because I know this person's future and they're completely unaware~~~it's almost a God-like feeling. They have no idea what's coming, no clue that I'm right in front of their face smiling like nothing's up but I'm about to crush them. Most of the time I can either be undetected (they don't know who/what is responsible for all of these bad things happening to them) or sometimes I even convince them that whatever happened was their fault and they end up apologizing to me for it all. Many have been screwed over more than once by me.
IIN?