Is it normal to role play father and daughter?
My mother died when i was very young. my father was an ex- army. he never married again. i was raised in a girl's hostel most of my childhood and was bullied.
when i was around 13 i came home for good. as in old times i slept in the same bed with my dad. middle of the night one time i noticed him reading sex magazine and masturbating. from that day i could not sleep peacefully. i so much wanted to have sex with him. to the point when i'd be sure he is asleep i'd touch him there and play with his x@#$. I would be so excited to see his part and play with it. i went totally crazy, my brains about to explode yet still be very slow n careful. one day i even took a step ahead to give him a blow job which woke him up. he got angry, pulled himself away from me, scolded me briefly and went off to sleep. next day he separated me and assigned me my new bed room. but still my desire to have sex with him never died. i used to peep him from the window during his day nap and watch him masturbate.
one night i opened my eyes from my sleep as i felt a hand touch me there. i heard my father's heavy breath. i wanted things to happen that i always desired. but was afraid to react for he might stop touching me. he stooped down and kissed me there. he felt my wet part with his fingers n slid my panty sideways and kissed me there and licked very softly for two or three times. he then got up slowly and went out of my room closing my door. i could not sleep all night long. my heart was thumping. next day i was sent to my aunt's house.
i grew up...married...and now have 2 daughters...got divorced. my father died many years back. i met my childhood sweet heart after 20 years and we fell in love again. we are now married n are very happy family. but then suddenly one day my childhood fantasy came haunting me back. i some how readied my husband to role play daughter and a father. but never told him this story. he was ok with it and started enjoying.
then one day he realised our role play somehow lead him to the idea of having sex with my elder daughter.
lately i am confused. he says that will never happen in reality. is it normal to have such fantasies and continue to enjoy such role plays? or is it a danger in future to my daughter? i dont know what i should do. is it normal?? fantasy excites me...but reality scares shit out of me. i went through lots of hardships in bringing up my daughters.
thanks in advance for your advice!!