Is it normal to rely on drugs to boost ourselves up
I drink and as for smoking, I have only done weed but it was never a daily thing like for my friends and others. I just wanted to try it and did it like what 6 times? Then i decided to stop because it never felt the same way like the first time i smoked. The first time I smoked, it was beautiful. I never felt so happy in my entire life and i never knew I was going to be able to feel happy and confident considering how sad I am sober. I would never think i had to lean on to drugs to feel better about myself. I wanted to drink and smoke just to socialize but never thought they would be that solution I needed to boost myself up and they are. Since I stopped smoking, I am only drinking which i love forever and ever! The only thing is, now i know my limits after my last drunken explosion and cannot wait to drink again but not going over my limits cause at least i remember things and i know what i am doing but still have that freedom and confidence to do what i wish i can do when i am sober. I wish I didnt have to rely on drugs to make myself feel better but I do and not a lot of times but if its there, Im gonna do it. This sounds like an alcoholic in the making because the average person does not reach to a substance to feel better.