Is it normal to regret this everyday?
I ignored my gf who i was completely in love with for like 2 years because I believed some random friend of mine that they got high and hooked up and he told me she talked shit about me to him idr exactly but it wasnt at a good time between me and my gf so i believed him. Then when i became close to her (kinda had to since we had the same friends basically) i told her why i completely shut myself off from her and she said "i have no respect for you, i never loved you so leave me alone". i regret this everyday and dream about it and its been another year since and i drunk call her all the time. IIN? should i let go even though it was not my fault exactly? I apologizedd :( btw sorry for being so long. just wondering what people other than my friends think