Is it normal to really want to kill someone?
I really want to kill someone. Not a specific person, just someone who fits a certain description. Probably a young attractive brunette who is physically fit. I have a plan for how I would kill this person; I would camp out by popularish hiking trail, I would lay down plastic over the trail and cover it with some dirt. I would then wait at a distance for someone who matched my description to come along, possibly for many days, and then I would shoot them with my hunting bow. I would then quickly slit their throat, and drag them off the trail. I would then haul away the bloody dirt, and dispose of it. I would have to resist from raping their body even though I would really want to because I do not want to leave semen. I would still probably touch it quite a bit. I could use a condom while raping them but it seems like a really good way to get trace evidence on the body. I would then probably pose the body like she is sleeping, or maybe like she is pleasuring herself. Of course I would be wearing gloves, a hat to keep my hair from getting on her, and disposable shoes from a thrift store so that police cannot match my footprint. I would also find an old cigarette butt on the street and put that near the body to throw off the cops. The weird thing is that I have never displayed any real "warning signs" for this kind of behaviour. As a kid I always felt that I had an excess of empathy. I used to save gophers from my cat, and I cried when a duckling that my Mom bought died. I have always been anti-social, but I have had a few friends, and I have never felt bullied. Writing this really makes me hope that nobody has put a key logger on my computer.