Is it normal to realise i'm a boring person?
I find it hard to strike up conversation with anyone, because in my head I feel as if asking a friend to go see a movie or meet up for my birthday would be an inconvenience to them. If they say yes it's just because they are being polite. No one particularly cares about me in any way more than they are obliged to, and I don't blame them -- everyone has their own problems. I have a handful of friends who I never really see anymore in real life and have never had a girlfriend.
My brain forces me to try and please everyone, so I never carve out a 'personality' for myself in the way I see others doing. I don't know if most people even know I have a personality. And I'm not sure I do. I generally do nothing other than go to work and watch tv/browse the internet/sleep. I'm tired all the time and can barely find the energy to clean my room until it's disgustingly dirty. If I didn't get hungry I probably wouldn't bother eating - I already often skip lunch or dinner because I can't be fucked.
I feel like a whiny bitch posting this, but I'm interested if anyone else has the feeling that they're just a boring person. It's not really a sad feeling, just a realisation that maybe the reason no one wants to talk to me particularly is that they wouldn't be missing much.