Is it normal to only say a few words a day?

for most of my life I have not been much of a talker. My peers would call me the "unibomber" and crack stupid jokes like how i'm going to blow up the school or be a mass murderer. Truth is, when I was in elementry school kids would make fun of my lisp and impersonate me. i gradually spoke less and less. My voice seems to be an interesting conversation starter...for other people. It makes me self concious because I feel like a circus act. I can write my thoughts but when It comes to actuallly talking outloud my mind is blank and I don't know what to say or how to say it. I spend a lot of time by myself and feeling depressed because im lonely. I know kids can be cruel and it happened long time ago but it still affects me everyday.

Thanks for reading.

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  • squirrelgirl

    Perhaps you should seek help from a speech therapist to help with your lisp. You should also seek help from a regular therapist to work out the unresolved feelings related to being bullied.

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  • ColdHeat

    A lisp is nothing to worry about, a man I admire very much so happens to have a lisp and is also a musician and frontman for a very popular band I like.Everybody has their own pesronal insecurities and managing to overcome them is part of becoming a better person.

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  • peace.out

    Why not get speech therapy sessions (lessons?). Maybe that'll help? Unless your lisp is already gone.

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  • 31/male

    I have a few friends and aquintances but no one really knows me because I don't open up that often. I remember being a happy kid until 5th grade when other kids first started making fun of me. As a result, I became more withdrawn and introverted. Puberty hit and my voice become a muffled monotone with a slight lisp. By now my parents began commenting on my voice. They told me to to speak clearly and not "speak out of my throat." I was already insecure about my voice and didn't know what they meant or how to change it. I tried to mask my monotone voice by speaking softer...it doesn't really work.

    I've been carrying this burden for so long. I really want to change and I've been working on it. I hope you can get yourself out of the depression you're in. I'm sure you agree that its not a good way to live.

    I found that it is easier to talk to older people/elders.

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  • Advice_From_Aly

    If you are depressed, no. But if you have a phone, you would usually be talking on the phone if you were a girl

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  • asdf90091

    I'm the same way, so I know exactly what you mean. Writing seems to come natural, I can write anything exactly how I mean it. Talking is just awkard and clumsy and I tend to either say the wrong word or stutter. The only advice I can give you is to play along with the jokes even when something bothers you. Don't be afraid to be yourself, but don't let them know they're bothering you.

    I've also struggled with depression for most of my life so I know how that feels too. When you try to suppress you who are, it only causes misery. Just be who you are, and fuck the haters who try to bring you down.

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    • Thanks. I agree. Though Its hard to not let their words bother me and I rarely defend myself. I don't know what to say until im in my car and driving home. By then its too late.

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  • emilydoll

    :)

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  • mumbum

    It is normal given your experience.. Being depressed though sucks, and going by your writing you have plenty to say, and you say it well! Maybe it is time to step away from your long term persona, and reassess it! Life is too short!

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    • Thank you for the kind words.

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