Is it normal to only live so that your family doesn't hurt?
I have been battling severe depression and suicidal thoughts. I've gone to counselors, spoken to friends and family, and done everything I can to make sure that I love myself and want to live. But no one listens or cares about my feelings, they claim they do but they dont. Everyone tells me the same thing that I need to do whats best for me but at the same time tell me not to kill myself because that would hurt them and they dont want that. But dying is what I want, i have tried everything to ease my mental suffering and find peace but none of it works. At least I know that if I die I wont be suffering anymore, but no one seems to understand that. They aren't worried about my current suffering they only seem to be worried about their suffering if I choose to end it all. I love my family and friends so I dont want to cause them pain but then I cant do what I feel is best for me