Is it normal to not want to go to sleep?
Over the past year or so, I've been feeling quite depressed. I won't into the details too much, but it's safe to say that it's making life quite difficult for me.
Something it has really taken a toll on is my sleep. I've never been one to sleep very early - since around the age of 13 I've always stayed up quite late. But this was just because I was pre-occupied with things.
Recently, I've been staying up insanely late because I just DON'T WANT to go to sleep. Within the past week, I've been staaying up 'til around 5am because I so desperately don't want to sleep. And even when I do settle down, I just lay there without closing my eyes because I don't want to sleep.
I've kind of pin-pointed the reasons to be that when you are resting, you're not being distracted by anything, so are left to your own thoughts in your head, and mine usually aren't very nice (i.e depressive). And I also think that it may be perhaps because of how I'm feeling right now, I don't like to go to sleep because it means I have to wake up to another day.
I'm not sure if any of this is making sense, but I'm becoming exhausted because of this, and it's making my depression worse.
Is it normal?