Is it normal to not want to ever get married?

it is not that I have anything against marriage. But I do take making such a decision very - if not extremely - seriously. Snd to be honest none of the men I have ever met has ever felt like i could seriously see myself married to them (of if they did, they didnt want me).

I just really think that if you are going to share your life with someone in such a manner - legally, economically but also emotionally - it has to be done by being aboslutely sure that you two belong together. And i mean really good together. Otherwise what's the point? Why would i want to agree into spending my time with someone who I am not really sure i want to always spend time with them in the sense that married ppl spend time together.

In other words, I just dont think an y man will ever be the kind that I would think is worth to marry.

I dont think that level of intimacy exists, or can exit for me, so i am giving up on the idea of getting married.

I really want to be married to someone who i cant wait to come home to, not someone I feel that I sort of have to put up with because i am in some kind of agreement with him. I like the idea of no firm commitment on paper. I take contracts seriously and I hate to sign things and be legally obligated.

I dont know that there is anybody ofr me out there. I am in my 30s and I just have not found anyone I could really connect with on that level and because of that, I am still unmarried. Yeah sure i like the guys I date and they are nice and all, but the moment i think of marriage with them, my stomach turns. I cant imagine spending the rest of my life with anyne of them. The idea of being bound ot just one person scares me too because i feel like you give up freedom.

I do want children and a big family if possible, but i am afraid that i wont find the man for that "ensemble". And i dont want ot have to compromise and do something i dont want to just because of the label. But it is also hard to have a family like that without a man. I am certainly not interested in being the single mother of several children of different fathers - that's just trashy and low class.

I'd never thought I'd say this but marriage scares me and unless I am totally in awe of someone and sure i want to spend every day for the rest of my ife with them, I am staying single, even though the things i want, like children, cant be achieved through singledom.

So, is this normal? I dont know how do people get married and agree to spend the REST OF THEIR LIVES with one person? That notion really scares me.Is it normal?