Is it normal to not trust my boyfriend?
I've been with my boyfriend for almost three years now. The first year of our relationship was great. Not much fighting, trust, and a bright future. We moved in together around the time we'd been together for two years. I found out a lot about him and I still love him a lot. I found out he had been lying about something I'd asked him about previously (multiple times) and he'd always denied it. (watching porn) Not that I particularly care that he watched it, I care that he lied to my face so many times about it. After that little discussion he said he would stop watching and always be honest. Long story short, a little while later I saw his search history and it wasn't exactly clean. Once again, it's not about the porn, it's the fact he lies about it. Just today I found out he was lying about something else that he had always denied as well. I'm starting to get really fed up with the amount of petty lies he's feeding me. If he can lie so easily about the little stuff, he can sure as heck lie about the big stuff too. I'm so worried and honestly I'm really hurt too. He says he doesn't like to talk about "stuff like this" so I can never get him to really open up to me either. This hurts because I share everything with him and would expect the same in return. I have very little trust in him as of now and it really sucks. I really don't want to break up with him.. I love him so much and I can't imagine being without him! But I can't stick around and be lied to forever either. Does any one have any tips to help me get out of this situation?