Is it normal to not have motivation about anything?
Ever since I became a teenager, I started to feel this apathy towards everything that I couldn't explain. School was terrible, I had no friends and really no desire to even show up or do "normal" things in school. Needless to say I dropped out at the age of 16. At the age of 18 my mother convinced me to seek psychological help. I did and was diagnosed with several illnesses, social anxiety and depression being one of the many.
I stopped seeing the doctors about a year later, by then I was 19. The depression was gone according to the doctors but I still felt apathetic.
Fast forward 6 years into the future and I still feel the same, apathetic with no sense of direction or motivation. I'm somewhat of a walking and talking cadaver so to speak.
Ever since the age of 19, for 6 long years I've been doing the same thing. Staying up all night using the computer browsing random things, or watching t.v. Then I sleep all day long to avoid contact with anyone (except my mother on some occasions). I still haven't found the motivation to do anything with my life or to enjoy anything at all. Everything seems tedious to me. And as you may have guessed, I still live with my mother and she still supports me. Sometimes I think if she were to stop supporting me I wouldn't bother to do anything, I start imagining myself just laying in a dark corner somewhere rotting. Is it normal to be this way? Indifferent about everything and not being able to enjoy things in life.