Is it normal to not feel any emotion or empathy and attractions?
Is it normal and how uncommon is it to not feel any emotion or empathy or attraction and being asexual aromantic aplatonic (please help me,am I schizoid?)?
I am an asexual aromantic aplatonic who can't feel almost any emotion you can think of including,empathy,joy, true happiness, love,fear,anger,sadness,guilt,shame,hate,disgust(mostly),care (except about how I perceive myself and my intelligence and appearance).
I'm diagnosed schizophrenic and have OCD,I used to live a perfect life even without emotions but things happened and now I lost my inflated ego,self-esteem,self-image and mental state and some mental skills,and that makes me suicidal.
Am I schizoid or neurologically a psychopath or what?
am I wired differently?
I think I'm probably schizoid as I was a sensitive kid and I'm not antisocial but got into trouble and lost emotions eventually which started exploding at age of 13 which is 9 years ago from this year , I'm 22 now.
I also can't feel attached to people even to family or friends.
I simply don't care.
if all my family and friends died or winning a billion dollar both would feel same as I feel completely blank.
But I have ethics and I'm a vegan utilitarianist,not that I emotionally care, but I can think philosophically.