Is it normal to not feel any emotion or empathy and attractions?

Is it normal and how uncommon is it to not feel any emotion or empathy or attraction and being asexual aromantic aplatonic (please help me,am I schizoid?)?

I am an asexual aromantic aplatonic who can't feel almost any emotion you can think of including,empathy,joy, true happiness, love,fear,anger,sadness,guilt,shame,hate,disgust(mostly),care (except about how I perceive myself and my intelligence and appearance).

I'm diagnosed schizophrenic and have OCD,I used to live a perfect life even without emotions but things happened and now I lost my inflated ego,self-esteem,self-image and mental state and some mental skills,and that makes me suicidal.

Am I schizoid or neurologically a psychopath or what?
am I wired differently?

I think I'm probably schizoid as I was a sensitive kid and I'm not antisocial but got into trouble and lost emotions eventually which started exploding at age of 13 which is 9 years ago from this year , I'm 22 now.

I also can't feel attached to people even to family or friends.
I simply don't care.

if all my family and friends died or winning a billion dollar both would feel same as I feel completely blank.
But I have ethics and I'm a vegan utilitarianist,not that I emotionally care, but I can think philosophically.

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Comments ( 8 )
  • Grangletras

    nah my guy, you good. you just gotta keep your head in reality, do what is best for YOU. go see a therapist and talk it out, sounds like you are just destined to make millions off of your intellect and stride

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    • XantiEbrahim

      I already go to a psychiatrist, have been on medications for 4 years and it didn't fix my self-image or self-esteem or make me restore my mental state ,but it helped with OCD.
      I'm going to see the psychologist as soon as possible but I can't yet because OCD requires me to finish some tasks and get things done first.

      I don't know if I have any hope though,maybe not.

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      • redrainbow22

        stop taking medications! they arent good for you!

        you should be able to work through this without them

        i knew of a girl who thought she was addicted to them, and would say it was really hard to get off them if she tried

        you shouldnt want to be addicted like that

        you can be healed! it sounds like you're just desensitized

        other people say they're asexual too. its not the end of the world

        maybe you're blocking all your emotions because you got hurt one time, and now you're just burying them deep down

        but like my friend said, you can never get rid of your emotions, just bury them. you still have them :)

        also if your thinking too much, then try to stop thinking so much, and think about things that make you happy or feel something instead

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  • redrainbow22

    "asexual aromantic aplatonic" what is that? :o

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    • XantiEbrahim

      Asexual = a person who doesn't feel "sexual" attraction to any other person.
      Aromantic = doesn't feel "romantic" attraction .
      Aplatonic = no "platonic" attraction .

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      • redrainbow22

        maybe you're thinking too much?

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        • The_Loitering_Creep

          Hi there, little girl, its me, your favorite creep. Sounds like the OP doesn't process emotions. What's thinking got to do with it? Please advise.

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          • redrainbow22

            has he ever tried to not think too much? maybe it would help?

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