Is it normal: to not care about my feelings but care more about stds?

I've been cheated on a lot, like a lot.
And at one point I cared about my emotional aspect.
Until some stupid ICP jerk gave me chlamydia.
But now, it's like, meh I'll drink and get high to forget my emotions.
Now all I care about are STDs.
Like, if my bf or gf wants to kiss me or bite me or have oral sex or vaginal sex or anal sex (actually a virgin with that last one cause I'm afraid of poop,) then I want them screened beforehand.
And I want to wait that whole time for all those tests to come back before we do anything, and even then, I only want to do things with a condom. I also avoid kissing most of the time.

I'm kind of in an open relationship now.
It's very strict in terms of physical health.
I just got to the point where I know more poly people that are loyal and honest and upfront vs "monogamous" people who cheat.

Anyhow. I don't seem to care about my emotional impact of being played or cheated on now.
Only if they had safe sex, and I want STD tests to prove it.

So, is that normal?
To care more about the physical impact vs emotional?