Is it normal to not care about friends?
I'm a senior in highschool and now for the past 2 years I've realized I do not care about friends. Countless times I've been manipulated by them, they copy me, and not in that admire thing they have literally tried to become me, they copy my art style, they get mad after one wrong too far joke, and they almost always trade me over for other people. Then, whenever I tell someone anonymously they think I'm an asshole? Like, I'm so sick of highschool I hate highschool. I'm transgender, I don't want to have to deal with friend drama that won't even matter after college. I've also moved a lot, so I know that no matter what I did when I was younger, in areas I'm not in anymore, It doesn't matter. Maybe I made a few people happy? and that's cool. But from all I remember I really only have several bad memories from years before I moved and I've forgotten everything else.
It doesn't matter and people want to make me try to care, but holy shit. I'm not their boyfriend, I don't have an emotional bond or connection with them, we are so not going to talk well into our thirties, hell most of them aren't even in my grade, so why should I bother? Is this a normal feeling? It's pisses me off insanely for others to think that I'm the bad guy for feeling this way.