Is it normal to not believe people when they say i am pretty?
I suffer from cystic acne.. but not like it covers my entire face.. maybe around 2-4 cystic acne which can be covered by foundation. and I go to my dermatologist every month.. I have some mild scars but I want perfect skin!
I just lost my self esteem because of these.. and I feel like I look so dirty. even though majority of people consider me as "pretty" "beautiful" cause they think I am almost perfect (if it wasn't for my pimples - which they say can be treated anyway so they tell me I should still be thankful)
I would like to believe them.. but if you suffer from acne like I do (for more than 10 years now).. you'll lose your self esteem.
I really think I am a pretty girl... I am cute, I have dimples, large round eyes... and beautiful smile and curvy body and nice hair.. but for me, it still couldn't compensate much for such bad skin :( people keep telling me I am beautiful and I should not feel bad about it because it's not that visible.. but still, I just think they are being nice on me :\
I still feel bad. I just want good, clear skin.. and I remember back in highschool, I was bullied and was teased about my acne.. even my ex called me "spongebob" because of tiny holes (acne craters) on my face. and.. they just hurt.. I know, it's funny but I still couldn't forget about all the teasing and bullying :(