Is it normal to not be sure to love your family?
Basically: When I was very young I was raped;nobody believe me when I told them at 15; I became out of control and depressed(cutting myself, drinking, partying, not going to school etc)things became better in my family. I went to a children's mental hospital for them to finally listen to me correctly. But now it seems like things are going back to the way they were when I was younger. I finished school but Im stuck at home; I cant find a job, and Im becoming depressed again. Im trying to go to school but of course no money, no applications. My mother has something wrong with my SSi and I cant apply to schools proper anyways. And she makes too much money to get fee waviers. I feel as though she's keeping me back from doing things. Im only 17 years old and I even thought about stripping or going to the navy to get out of this mess. Im not sure if this is normal to even hate my family the way I hate them, but then again depressed because they need me to help them with money problems. any advice too