Is it normal to not be comfortable with oral sex, but like other stuff

I'm a 23-year-old female. I just came across a sex website and it got me to thinking about stuff.

Last time I was in a relationship was 4 years ago, and I dated him for 8 months. It was my only relationship. We never had vaginal sex (I still haven't), but we used to make out constantly, he would finger me, or we would grind against each other, or sometimes he would go down on me. I never went down on him because he didn't want to try it, and I didn't want to do it either. He really wanted to go down on me, but I was never sure whether I liked it or not. First time he did it, after he spent hours pressuring me, I cried because it was too intimate, and I didn't feel right doing it. After that, I discovered I liked feeling in control, and let him do it to me, even though I got much more pleasure out of humping him or him fingering me. But the actual act of oral sex wasn't that pleasurable, and I never got that aroused when he was doing it, the idea of it was more arousing than the actual act. I was too shy to let him what I liked, and the feeling of having him lick my pussy was almost too intense to bear. What's really weird is, I think about oral sex when I masturbate (both getting and giving it), but I find the thought of actually giving head to be repulsive. I gag on my food easily, and I hate the thought of getting on my knees for anyone. I hate how some guys act like they enjoy degrading women when they get blowjobs. I hate how it's expected out of you if you're in a relationship. Basically, I hate conforming to anyone's standards of what I should do in my private life.

What's really weird is I find the thought of bondage to be a HUGE turn-on. Like it features in a lot of my fantasies, and I like to look at pics or read bondage stories online. I liked my boyfriend to restrain me so I couldn't move, I liked to grab him roughly by the arms and pin him down. My favourite thing to do was to lie beside him with him against my butt so I could feel his penis against my G-spot, and have him stroke me with one hand, and put his other hand roughly over my mouth, and I would scream and rub against him until I thought I would die from the pleasure. What I also liked to do was to pin him down on his back, then climb on top and ride him until I got sore. I got such a thrill out of seeing him on his knees when he went down on me, but I also felt guilty somehow, like that's not the sort of thing girls are supposed to like. I wanted to try bondage or role-play with him, but I never had the guts to actually tell him that.

Ummm long story short, but is it normal to not like oral sex but to find bondage and role-play a big turn-on? I just want to know if anyone else feels the same way. By the way, I know perfectly fucking well that I'm a celibate virgin, so don't be a smartass and tell me that it's not normal, I already fucking know, thank you.