Is it normal to not be able to love romantically?

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It so awkward for me when I'm around my 'friends'. They all try to hook me up on dates, and tell me that I "like" someone, but I don't. I've told them over and over again, I don't care if someone "likes me". I can't feel anything for them other than mainly acquaintanceship. I only have one best friend in the world, and I still don't tell her everything, the reason for this is, I took a mental health test, and I've been diagnosed with Narcissism, Paranoia, Trust issues, and Schizophrenia. I also have ADHD and ADD. I've been an only child for most of my childhood, and I can say mine wasn't the best. I had to grow up to fast so I can take care of my mother, who was almost always sick. Can you imagine and 4 or 5 year old making her mother ramen noodles, and getting her ice for her drinks by standing on a chair to reach the freezer, while making herself some 'Chef Boyardee pasta in a can'.
That's how I lived up until I was 7 and my mom had a boyfriend, who molested me. Then another boyfriend who was a rapist, thank God he got into a car crash before he ever got to meet me. So along the lines, I've had some pretty close shaves. And after time, my mom eventually got better and would be able to do things herself. But would she do it? Of course not, she is a fat, lazy bitch with no consideration for anyone around her. I felt as if since she but me into this world, I owed something to her. Once I moved out, I told her everything I felt, how much I hated her, and everything in between. I also had problems with my dad, of course, I would choose to live with my dad any day. You see, he had ADHD and ADD, but he was always treating me as if I had the brain of a 3 year old, grant it I was stubborn and refused to let him 'win', and that ended up us arguing....a lot. The only reason I didn't run away was because I didn't want to lose my cat. Yes I loved my cat more than my mother, and I still do.
Call me hateful, call me a bitch, it wont matter, I don't take it praise or criticism. I just wanted to know another person point of veiw.

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    Same. Im to selfish to love others though.

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  • Antir0b0t
    12 years ago

    You might be asexual. Look it up.

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  • Alaska
    12 years ago

    Well I understand why you don't tell everything even your closest friends. Actually I can't tell my friends neither. I fell like I don't trust them, because I know the will laugh or just ignore my problems. It's easy to tell other people you barley know and some people here can really help you, they just make that you feel better. I remember my mother forced me to go to a psychologist and I haven't trust her and I could;'t tell her my problems, because I was to afraid she would say: That Problem of yours ain't really problems.
    The fact that you hate you mother I think is normal, besides the things you tell, there are awful. But I understand some of them.
    I hate my father and I feel really guilty about it.
    If you ever need a strager to talk too :) I would really like to listen to you

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    • GuessWho
      12 years ago

      Same thing with a psychologist.
      My mom tried to send me to one once, but it didn't work.
      I wouldn't trust the psychologist and told her nothing because:
      - What if she shared with my mom whatever I told her that I didn't want shared?
      - Psychologists are psychos themselves.
      I just told my mom it didn't help me and I suppose she got the same response from the other end.

      Like OP, I can't really trust or care for anyone, but I didn't have any issues in my childhood that lead to this.

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