Is it normal to need to go my own way or the true me will die?

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I want evrything to fade away,not see anyone, be a little away from humanity just to begin, and start getting rid of all my anguish and bad things I have inside through art,music, dance... through the pure feeling of being alone, being in PEACE!! And I have no idea of how I can do that, because I live with my father, my brothers, have family etc... but I need express myself and kind of heal in some way, get rid of certain burdens, and I need to be alone to do that, but in this moment I have no one to trust and just feel very contrived all the time, I really hope I can be free, and think the best could happen to me is to be given the opportuinity to be some time alone with myself... I also prefer not to be seen or be involved with people's lives and in general really feel life is incredibly SHorttt!! i need to be more like myself or else I'm going nowhere by trying to appear like I'm okay with everything that's around me, and I don't think of this regularly because otherwise it would drive me nuts I'm really not ok and I don't have anyone to trust, so it's just me an the uncertainess of my life... doesn't really feel good living like this...

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    ^ 2 take a walk in nature, such good advice, ditto

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    im the same kinda my whole attitude is a lie and well long story short because of things that iv done and things that have happened to me the way i think the way iv lived the way i am im being examned by doctors starting this week to see if i need put in one of them mental home places and im not even bothered and im thinking maybe through this i can find peace but to be honest i think its too late for me to change who i am and who smiles is

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      13 years ago

      hello there ItDuz. We act like somebody else just to try to please others at first but as we keep doing it, somehow forget what we really want to do and who we really are, this creates a great conflict in me, because deep inside I know the only way to feel like I'm truly living and Breathing is by doing things I want and NEED to do, but in the other hand I Have this feeling of incredible guilt when I let someone down, I guess we all have to choose somehow between being OURSELVES or being what others would like us to be (THAT'S NOT FAIR AND WILL NEVER WORK FOR ME)Personally I think and don't need any anylist to reasure me that the ONLY ONES WHO CAN REALLY HELP ME or YOU is NO oNE Else but OURSELVES. I would really like you to know that there's is no doubt for me that THIS situation can be really hard to beat at certain point but I'm sure That YOU as well as I deserve to FREE ourselves from everything that's trying to make you keep believing you don't deserve WHETHEVER IT IS YOU TRULLY WANT. Because YOU DO WANT SOMETHING, just maybe are scare to accept it totally and go for it because are afraid of being judge, which is my case, Whethever you are I'd like to know that I trully belive there's never too late, whethever you have done, Just look into yourself N don't be afraid to find the real you. And there is nothing wrong with the real you, I've realised that the problems and conflicts come when you don't accept yourself, whether it is because no one around you seems to understands you or because you've always lacked self confidence, which is my case too. REMEMBER to be strong and focus more in You. Maybe you do need time alone alone (Like I DO!!), to think of what you have done, look for the answers inside you. Please don't give up...

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      • [Old Memory]
        13 years ago

        but what if the real me is bad for others and i like being the real me not because of my social life or because something dramatic happened in my life but i do the things just because i want to and enjoy it. what if my whole life is a lie because it hides who i really am, preventing me from ever being punished for my crimes? What if people cant understand me because i dont want them to understand me. What if they judged a book by its cover and now have to go through the sequel.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          13 years ago

          Hey as long as the real you is ok to you, that's who you are supposed to be. But I think I get it now, you want to BE YOU, but you don't want to be "punished" for things that you do they consider wrong(without even caring to know about the reasons), so you've become resentful about it hide within a mask so they can't see you or your motives, also as a way of punishing them for judging you. If this is the case, I can tell I've been there, But, while you keep hiding preventing yourself from getting known by people, you are at the same time, preventing yourself from truly living and that's not fucking fair!! As long as you like who you are, there's no problem, and how can you possibly like yourself if you're not even there. as long as you enjoy what you do, you are happy right, so, if there's something you would like to do but know would be smashed by their judgements or be punished I would recomend you to reconsider how bad you want to do it, and if indeed you need to do it, JUST DO IT!! But try to have confidence in you, know that you're right, even if the whole world is against you. Now I don't know what it is you have done, but for me there is no right or wrong reasons, there just reasons, and its your reason. so if you need to kill somebody or something, just be smart enough when you do it and I guess it would be ok to pretend you're something you're not, but Hey! you would be getting away with the crime right!?, WHAT A SATISFACTION! Don't you think!?
          Just do what you enjoy please..
          or if you're not already thinking about it, you would like to kill someone soon and that's a complicated matter there, not every body can get away with that kind of crimes you know, just enjoy life.

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          • [Old Memory]
            13 years ago

            your a wise person

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  • Anonymous Post Author
    13 years ago

    thanks 4 the advise.

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