Is it normal to miss my best friend before it got awkwa

Ok so me and my friend have been friends for a long time. In my freshman yr. He started to develop feelings for me, and at the time I was dating another guy. He was really into me and I didn't know what to do. He wrote me a note saying that he has had a crush in me for a while. So later on he starts walking me home and he followed me like a little puppy dog. Then one day he finally asked me out. And I turned him down... Then he started to cry, I took him out of class and had talked to him. Now I have dreams about me and him being together and I'm so happy in my dreams. I try and talk to him but ever since he asked my out it's been awkward for us to even talk.

Please help me I really miss talking to him and what do my dreams mean??