Is it normal to make yourself sick?

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My BMI's just below 19 but I desperately want it to be 16 or under. I've had anorexia in the past, but I can eat now, so it's not like I have an eating disorder. Food still preoccupies my thoughts though, all the time. I know about bulimia but I feel ashamed saying I have that, because people with bulimia are ill, and I don't feel ill, I just have habits of making myself sick after meals and using laxatives to make up for occasional binge eating. I don't want to go and see anybody about "bulimia" because I don't want to waste anyone's time, and I know that when people look at me they think I'm fat, so they wouldn't believe me anyway. I make myself sick if I eat a normal size meal, it's not just with bingeing. Every now and then though I wake up and can't stop thinking about food until I eat, and need to binge. It's like I lose control when I eat. I'll be thinking to myself "I'll stop in a minute" but it seems impossible, it's like I lose control. I don't know what to do, I've tried to stop so many times but can't. It feels like it won't ever go away and it's pushing me towards the thought of suicide. Is it normal to feel like this? I'm 18, I don't know if it's just some insecurity thing at my age.

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Based on 43 votes (8 yes)
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  • Sog
    11 years ago

    There are many more healthy ways to lose weight. Even if you do manage to get to a target weight this way, your body will be in poor shape and you'll still feel bad. You need to be sculpting the right body with exercise, not trying to hollow one out by starving yourself.

    You should talk to a doctor because what you're doing is not healthy.

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    • got11
      11 years ago

      Eating disorders are neurologically rooted. You cant just tell someone with an ed to do it the healthy way. They are very well aware of how to do things the healthy way, I assure you. And usually experts on it since they are so obsessed with weight loss. It usually has a lot more to do with control than weight loss. That is just the one thing they feel they have control over. That's why even anorexics who are severely underweight still want to lose more.

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    • Captain_Kegstand
      11 years ago

      My thoughts exactly

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  • coffeebreath
    11 years ago

    It sounds to me as though you do have bulimia. Binge eating and throwing up after meals in order to lose weight is not normal, and I'm sure you know that. Don't be ashamed to admit it, because it's only after you accept that you have a problem that you can begin the process of recovery.

    Good luck.

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    • freeasair
      11 years ago

      Thank you. I knew it was extreme, but I didn't know if it could be classed as an eating disorder.

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  • KacyWatson
    3 years ago

    No

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  • joybird
    11 years ago

    With a BMI of 19 you can't possibly be fat!!

    You really shouldn't want to be any lower as it can lead to osteoporosis. Even though I'd like to lose a few pounds I would never be sick coz I like my teeth. The acid from your stomach erodes your enamel which is why your dentist is the first to notice you have bullimia. But when the enamel is gone you can't repair it.

    You are probably just perfect, so eat healthy food and smile - with your own teeth (for the moment).

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