Is it normal to lust after a younger roommate?
I'm a 38yo divorced woman in Canberra Australia. I've been living alone for just over a year and about two months ago a friend from Sydney contacted me asking if her son could stay with me because he just got a job offer close to me but has nowhere to stay...I said sure.
Justin is 20, I've known his mother since we went to school together but I've never really known him other than casual meetings as he's grown up.
He settled into the spare room I have in my house and things were fine, he started his new job, met a girl at work and the relationship was getting serious. I said it was okay with me if she came home with him as long as he was discreet.
This is where things changed. In the quiet of night I can hear them making love and I masturbate nightly in unison. Whenever we are at home alone, I view him differently, he makes me so hot, and I'm sure he's caught me looking at him more than once.
Last night they were in his room and I was watching TV in the living room, when his girlfriend came out sobbing, excused herself and left, I knocked on Justin's door and let myself in, he was crying too and told me they had just broken up.
I consoled him for awhile and said if he wanted to talk about it I was here for him.
I went back to the living room and back to my movie and he came out a few minutes later, still crying and looking so sad, he sat next to me and I held him...big mistake!
I got this flood of emotion and lust. He was in track pants and a T shirt, I was in a nightgown with bra and panties underneath and I got instantly horny as I held him to me and stroked his hair.
He was telling me what happened, but I wasn't listening, my hair stroking somehow turned into caressing his chest and muscular arms, I could feel myself getting wet, I wanted to stop caressing him but I couldn't, I just got more bold...more horny.
I joined the conversation trying to make him feel better and at the same time lowered my hand down his arms and across his tummy. I looked down and saw he had an erection. Nothing more was said. I began to stroke his cock, at first through his track pants, then I pulled them aside to reveal a beautiful penis.
I kept slowly jerking him and watched him as first a drop of pre-cum appeared then he orgasmed, reaching his chin and spraying all over his chest.
I cleaned him up with some tissues, he apologised, excused himself and went to his room. I went to bed, horny but full of guilt.
I'm so conflicted over wanting to apologise and wanting to have sex with him. We haven't spoken since it happened and as much as I'm looking forward to him coming home, I'm also fearing it.
Part of me wants to help him and support him, the other part wants to jump him and screw him senseless.
Lusting after a 20yo is probably normal but acting on it can't be...is it?