Is it normal to love your same sex(female) bestfriend
So I have known my bestfriend since we were in 8th grade(13yrs old) and we just graduated high school(18yrs old). I'm going to call her "bestie" in this passage. Well "bestie" and I have been there for each other through everything; from getting our hearts broken, losing our virginity and the birth of her son at(15 yrs old). I can honestly say that i love that girl to death and would do anything to see her happy.. but what often sacres me is that i think that love is stronger than it should be. Okay let me explain things better for you all. "bestie" and i hung out really hard with these guys our "year 17 summer" as we call it. I admit I did things that i never thought i would do. I drank and received second hand smoke some might know that term but any who.. we had a little to much to drink i would say. It started with a kiss.. then she was on top of me kissing and playing in my hair; to my surprise thats as far as it went. Sometimes we bring that summer up, we often laugh but we questioned what it would be like. We never took it past a conversation but i find my self looking at her(not that i have to look hard, because we take showers while one is doing her make up and ect). I get aroused when she plays in my hair at night, position my boobs in my bra.. and when certain songs come on she dances on me. I often get jealous when she is around her sons father, because i have a bad feeling about him and i admit im hating on them a lot. She has often told me that i deserve love no matter what sex! i'm wondering if ceratin circumstances were different between her childs father, and if she wasn't scared about what other people would say would we be together.. I'm not sure but I do know that i heart that chick!( to make things worst i'm in a serious relationship with a guy! that i care alot about... i wonder if i could have both) Oh wow.. someone give me advice please..thank you!