Is it normal to love a female teacher more then a teacher?

Well I was 16 when I first fell in love with my female middle school teacher. She was sooo nice and very caring, she was very popular in our school and very unique.I was a transfer but I use to go to that school when I was younger. Make a long story short I fell head over heels for her and never been the same. She had a smile that made me weak in the knees, whats even worse was I was falling for a female teacher that had know idea I liked her being as though Im a female myself! During the years we started getting closer then ever. My friends started getting jealous of our relationship and one even stopped liking me because I was so close with this popular teacher. Our relationship started to raise eyebrows because during the years we didnt even realize how close we were getting. She would come in a classroom and the first person she would speak to would be me, if I got into trouble she would be the first one to get me out. I started gaining the most RESPECT for her and soon I started not to care about what others started to think us because the way I started caring for her and loving her was unconditional. Later down the line I started showing her more then I could show myself. I started sending her letters, she gave me her email address and telephone number numerous times and even showed me more attention then others.That is Until one day, my friends dared me to make a fake page and talk to her on it as if I was a guy. I didnt want too because I felt like she deserved more then kids being childish, One thing led to another and before I knew it, it was a matter of time before she eventually found out it was us playing. She asked me did I make the fake account by myself and If not who else was involved? I took the blame for my friends and I because I figured it was just a joke and I didnt want them getting in trouble over something small. Little did I know, the same girl that was jealous of us, knew exactly what she was doing and made me the joke of the school. Suddenly I was called "a stalker" by the principle and everytime my so called friend and I got into an arguement she would throw that in my face and I always let it go. One day it bothered me so much that I eventually didnt want to be so close to my teacher anymore. I just wanted her to treat me like a regular kid, but we grew so much on each other that it was hard to seperate myself from her. I started loosing intrest in her, I would find ways to avoid her, I stopped speaking to her and even started to turn my love into hate. I realized this only made my "friends" like me more and for me and it made me unhappy. I decided to not care about what everybody else thought and made our relationship better. I lost a friend that year due to me being so fascinated with our teacher, and to be honest I really didnt care about loosing her as friend, because friends help friends ,not bring them down. I started expressing my love for her in every way that I could. It became so bad to the point where her love was the only love I wanted. I didnt want to have relationships with boys or even have a relationship with anyone period. I was head over heels for her and everything around me was unimportant if it wasnt about her. The more feelings I gained towards her the less I cared about anything else around me. I am now 20 and Is still MADLY in love with her. we still talk from time to time on Facebook and if im around where I grew up ,I would take a walk by the school but dont go in. this is a love I feel will NEVER go away.I want her to be in my life forever, but I dont want to have sex with her or anything in that sort. but im in love with her. what should I do ?!??