Is it normal to like to imagine i'm having sex for the first time?
(Sorry in advance for the TMI factor here)
So, basically I'm quite tight and my boyfriend's penis is quite large. When we have sex it hurts. In particular the first time we did it really felt as though I was losing my virginity, even though I wasn't. When I started to think of it that way it really turned me on.
Now almost every time we have sex I imagine in my head it's my first time, I like to pretend I'm younger than him (not underage or anything though) and that I'm completely innocent and he's experienced etc. He doesn't know I do this, and I'm not sure if I should tell him, I worry that he'd find it weird. Is this an okay fantasy to have? do you think it would be okay to tell him, or even ask him to play along?
My worry is that it might be seen as a 'pedo'-related fetish/fantasy, because I like to feel young and innocent and like I'm being 'corrupted'. I don't think it's pedophilic at all, I just worry he might. What do you think?
(I'm 20 and lost my virginity at 18)