Is it normal to "like" going through depression?

I've only had depression for a year now, and I secretly want someone to help me. I sort of.... Like depression. Just the feeling of not feeling. Crying over again. The feeling of every dark emotion combined in my soul, twisting it around. I don't have a reason for my depression other than my selective mutism, my friends being mean to me, and my pills that cause depression. I don't know. I don't know what is happening to my mind.

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  • I don't understand how someone could like being depressed. This baffles my mind.
    However I can understand depression may feel insightful. When Ive been depressed I can remember thinking that I was aware of things that sucked that other people didn't think about. However its not a productive thought process either.

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  • PaulXavier

    When I was depressed as a kid people had different expectations of me. There was less how I should talk what I should say or do. I got to read my books and choose how much time I spend with people. I hate this classification of personalities. One personality is right, and the rest are illnesses. Talk about control. We can think whatever we want, but they require us to feel certain ways for certain amounts of time, for certain reasons. And if a five minute pep talk and pigeon hole program doesn't cure somebody. give them drugs. Drug mandated behavior. Look up these shootings that have been going on. 100% are people on anti-depressants, or anti-depressant withdrawals. 100%. These shootings started in the 70's when they started prescribing them, And they have increased as prescriptions have proliferated. Yeah it's normal to want to feel bad sometimes. Not the kind of normal that won't make you stick out in a crowd, but the kind of normal that forms your perspective in life. It is not normal for everyone to grow and mature emotionally exactly the same way as everyone else. If you have sense of right and wrong, and care about others that will see you through anything.

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  • jwzc96

    Depends what you mean. What exactly do you like about depression? Is it that you like having a good cry once in a while? I like that too but I wouldn't say I like depression. Need more details to answer ur question :)

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  • thecoldhardtruth

    The tragedy of depression is romantic in a way.

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  • Technicolor_Irons

    So do you like the feeling of darkness that depression brings?

    Or the feeling of NOT feeling?

    Because your sentence and following description seem contrary, so I'm not sure.

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  • Dropthesun24

    I have exactly the same twisted problem... I guess depression kind of becomes a comfort zone

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  • ants91shearer

    i am kind of the same i like the feeling of being rejected n not fitting in being the odd one out, i love the feeling of not belonging because im different in the head no one likes me my personality sucks , theres only 2 things in this stupid world ME N MY MOTORBIKE BUELL LIGHTING 900, wen ever you see me on the roads on my motorbike nod ur head because im a lone wolf who is willing to plan a heist

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    • Johnnytherat

      you sound so hardcore.. watchout guys we got a bada$$ over here

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      • ants91shearer

        FTW!!! ps i feel like a some fish n chips

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  • battleofone

    I can understand how you can like being emotionally numb but I don't understand how you can like being depressed.

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  • Charmo

    I find that although I am mostly averse to depression (since that is only natural), when I am struck with it after a long period of normality, it gives me a sense of... familiarity. Like putting on an old leather jacket that you haven't worn in ages. I would almost describe it as a feeling of nostalgia.

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  • dexy77

    you may need to have your medications changed because it doesn't sound like they're working.

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  • noid

    The selective mutism is not normal. I hope you overcome that.

    Sometimes I like to feel depressed too.

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  • BloodRedAndTrue

    I understand how you feel.

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  • FluffySheep

    You'd be so much fun at a party then.
    it's not normal and you said so yourself that you have nothing to be depressed over! Stop being a grey cloud and cheer up!

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    • forever_anon

      IDK, sounds like the OP has good reasons to be depressed. Having unkind friends can really bring a person down. Also, if necessary medications cause depression, there's not much a person can do about that.

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  • Johnnytherat

    :) <-- stare at that smile & try & tell me would STILL rather be this --> :(
    now stop being such a debbie downer..

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