Is it normal to lie about how i am??

So basically, I hate my life at the moment. My mum got diagnosed with breast cancer a while ago, my self hatred is stronger than ever and my self esteem at an all time low. I'm not even kidding, I'm disgusted at the way I look..........I'm repulsed at what I see when I look into a mirror. I get bullied sometimes and i cry almost everyday. Because I sometimes seem upset at school, people always ask me how I am or if I'm ok. I always say that I'm fine or that I'm just tired, even though I'm dying inside. I guess it's just easier to lie than to actually talk about my feelings. If I was to actually talk to someone, I wouldn't even know where to start.
IIN?

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  • Corleone

    I think a therapist would be better to help you deal with those problems than random internet people would

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  • littlemissgiggles

    Why do you assume that I'm lieing?? Why would I want to lie about how shit my life is. One of the reasons that I don't talk to people is because of the reaction that I just got from you.

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  • ndublet

    No one will believe anything u say if I carry on lying

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  • ndublet

    Your prob lying about some of the stuff u are telling us , if u start lying no one will believe about anything

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  • littlemissgiggles

    Thanks everyone.
    But that's the thing, I'm definately more of a 'suffer in silence' type of person. I think that that's another reason why I'm not truthful to people about how I am. I hoenstly just don't know what to do

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  • bluegier

    I do the same most of the time. Joke around at work, laugh and pretend to be ok, although I'd just like to burst into tears. It's easier than being asked if I was ok all the time.
    There seems to be a lot you have to deal with at the moment. If you don't feel like talking to anyone try to write a diary, it helps to sort through the staff that troubles you. Maybe then you know where to start when talking about it....

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  • .Linkin.Park.

    I do the same thing. I smile and laugh around friends and family. But then go home, lock myself in my room and cry. Because lying seems easier than showing your true self, because you don't know what people will think of you.

    But I agree with the others, therapy is the best option. (unless you're like me who doesn't like talking to anyone.)

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  • myownopinions

    You need someone to open up to. I'd go with what the other usernames said about seeing a therapist.

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  • Avant-Garde

    I do that too. I always lie to people I see when they ask. Maybe, talking to a therapist would help.

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