Is it normal to know you're slow but acccept it?
I've seen this too many times where the person knows they are slow and kinda dumb I guess but they're like "oh well moving on thats me." I don't know how they do that! But I admire them! because it takes a lot of guts! I KNOW I am not the smartest person in the world. Sometimes yes, I do think I am mentally challenged. But then I'm like "no that's too far." Trust me though I have my moments and when I know I did, I get like a panic attack because hello who wants to come out as stupid? I try to look at it like no big deal cause I'm not that clueless so I should be able to move on like those other people do who know they're dumb. But I just can't!! Its embarrassing and when I am by myself I know I'm not stupid. I consider myself wise and reasonably smart but in terms of "object" or "scientifically" smart, nooooo. For example, when I was like 14, I couldn't distinguish the difference between salt and sugar at a restaurant. Or I couldn't distinguish the difference between sour and sweet. So you see what I am saying? Its like simple things. But I give good advice, I know what to do, etc. It really sucks. My ex considered me really smart even though I would make really dumb comments and he'd laugh but move on. Whenever he'd express his feelings towards me, he would mention how he knows I'm smart. He even said he would want a gf a little less smart than me. So he gets how smart I can be. But when it comes to just "friends" or acquaintances, I can come out as really dumb. Ugh. Urghhhh. And like I said earlier, some people define themselves as thats just who they are and it seems like their friends accept them and love them no matter what. But I can't do that. So I am basically private now when I meet people like I don't say much or hang out with them much because I am trying to protect myself from humiliation. But then when it happens, ahhhh it feels like I just got shot or like I want to get shot and never see them again. Who knows they're dumb or slow but move on anyways and accept it? How do you do it? Should I just act casual like "hahah I make some dumb comments" and they'll realize I am like everyone else who has their moments but isn't completely dumb?